Gah!

My new site is up!

http://www.edenhearts.com

Feel free to visit!!!

I've moved.  I'm going to continue posting here.  Well, try to.
I'll make a post after I unpack, I promise.

I like life right now.
I have two hickeys, three bruises on my harms, a bite mark on one hip and grab marks on the other. He has scratches everywhere. We're going swimming and his ex will be in attendance. Fun time.
Earl Grey Cupcakes tomorrow!

I suppose I could make a quick post within the next two minutes before I run home to email myself my speech so that it can get corrected. Tyler and I are pretty much dating, we're just not using that word until we decide that things have cooled down enough. I told Ryley that him and I could go on minor "dates" (so he doesn't act so depressed), mostly because I want to remain friends. I have a speech on saturday, so I'll be in Saskatoon for that. I'll also be in Saskatoon this Tuesday to help Christofer Molnar move home (I'm going with Tyler, and probably Brianna.). I've made new friends and pretty much started a new life. I have so much I have to get done today!
-French homework
-Math review
-Law essay
-Plant my herbs
-Run to liquidation world to pick up the pots to plant my herbs.
-Find a small watering can.
-Go home to pick up my speech so Mme. Hélène can correct it (quickly, I hope)
-Practice my speech if possible.
-HOMEWORK LIKE NO TOMORROW!
-fuck.

I haven't been wearing makeup or doing my hair anymore.
I feel gorgeous:

So confused!
Someone tell me what I want.

Tyler and I stayed up late texting because I was really upset. He ended up telling me he had a crush on me, but that he didn't want to date because he didn't want to hurt me. I told him I felt the same way.

Ugh.

Man am I ever ready to crash -
However these events must be documented.

Yesterday was Shar's wedding. She looked great, but to be honest I didn't really go to help her celebrate - I needed an escape from my current reality. Dancing is an amazing escape.
The night began with supper with my uncle. It went very well, surprisingly, and I'm glad it did. Tyler was going to come for supper but he had to eat at home as his brother had just returned from a trip of some sort. He came and picked me up. We signed the card. He smelled SO good. We headed over to the Gallagher center. Inside, we became lost for a moment because there were no directions - but we followed the music.
We sat down and I went and socialized for a bit. The majority of the computer department also came and sat with us. I was being a creepy stalker and taking pictures of the table. It was fun.
At the beginning, no one danced from our "group". The guys actually grabbed chairs to sit on the edge of the dance floor (wall flowers, much?). I refused to sit. I went and talked to Barb (german lady, sweet). The Red Door was closed down, which is saddening. Finally we began to dance.
At first, we were a bit cautious. But eventually, we went nuts. By the end of the night Tyler and I were running around like baffoons and pretending we were dinosaurs. He's an AMAZING dancer. Holy shit. We were laughing the entire time - we had so much fun. He would laugh really extravagantly and then kinda collapse on me in a sense. We weren't drunk. However we were rather close the entire night. DARNELLE WAS SUPER DRUNK AND HANGING OFF OF HIM UNTIL TODD PEELED HER OFF.
It was amazing.
We walked out of the building when we decided to leave, as a bunch of harvest players came and crashed the dancing. The sky was beautiful. It was a deep indigo with tints of orange clouds. The wind was pushing powdered snow across our feet- it was freezing but it was perfect.
We sat in his car for a bit letting it heat up so that we could see. We drove around for a bit - talking...just talking, about EVERYTHING. We listened to nice music.
We then went to Robin's, and it was really nice. Until Holly's closed, and I saw a girls boob falling out of her shirt. It was gross. We left.
We drove around some more. I was praying he wouldn't take me home. I was having such a perfect night. Finally he did take me home, and we ended up texting each other to sleep.
Today I was exhausted, got my period, and Ryley and I fought the entire day.
No wonder I'm so unfaithful.

No more "I guess".
Everything will be alright.
No more ditches and trenches.
I'm alive again.

today has been wonderful.

I woke up at 7:30, had a shower and then coffee with my mom.  Tyler called at 8:00 and so I put on a bit of makeup, had more coffee and then went for a dandy walk at 8:45.  We walked around Weinmaster until 10:00, and then we headed to my house.  We had coffee ( he drank it black - forgot to ask if he took cream/sugar...oops.) and at popping mini eggs (amazing!).  I showed him my room and it's walls.  He flattered me by complementing my house which I find slightly disgusting.   I walked him home, and then he changed and we went to work.  On the way there, he played "Personal" by Stars to see if I would cry.  I had to hold it in ( I cry every time I hear that song).  He laughed at me.  That song makes me feel lonely. At work, he kept walking by and smiling. He's the kind of friend I need right now.
My mom came into work with my brother.  He has had his learners for 4-5 days and he crashed the car today.  So, he'll be getting a job asap to pay off mom's deductable.  Mom's pissed.
I got to Ryley's and he's pissed off at me for going for a walk.  I'm not in love with Tyler like I am in love with Ryley.  Ryley just doesn't like the same things I like - so I find different people to hang out with sometimes.  He's constantly jealous due to past events.  I'm never leaving him - we have a good relationship.  I just need friends and separate hangouts at times.
I'm generally happy and I'm not going to let relationship problems fuck that up.
Dan will be home tonight - I really don't feel like hanging out with the guys.  I just want to go watch Breakfast at Tiffany's and write.

Toodles.

I feel unusually amazing right now.  I spent the entire night rockin' out to new tunes and singing chansons over msn with Tyler.  Meanwhile, Ryley narrated his World Of Warcraft adventures.  Oh dear.
I haven't been using Windows Live Messenger anymore.  I like Adium better, but I've been using Pidgin on the PC.  It's really nice in comparison to some of the other ones I've tried.  I wanted to try Miranda IM but it wouldn't import my contacts?  Or else I'm just ridiculously stupid and can't work with computers.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go for a jog/walk with Tyler in the early morn, and then if we both get called into work,  we'll get to work together all day.  He's such a sweetheart.  Definitely not a douche.
I'm spending the evening with Ryley tonight.  I'm kinda nervous about it?  I don't know how I feel about him right now.